Co-existence of life and death

When my eldest brother passed away I started to recreate him inside myself. My mission came across with a new concept which I was remembered by a lesson from Deepak Choppra. ....
I began to view the life in a different way. I used to divide the universe to two separate realms; life and afterlife or earth and heaven.

In this view you have to wait till your death time to join the other realm, heaven. This theory didn't satisfy my thirsty to join my beloved, departed persons. So I started to find a rout to pass through to get the other part, if there is any.
Recently I am noticing that everything that I used to think that is real, might be unreal. A virtual existence instead of a real one, a potential to exist instead of already exist material are the result of my new way of thinking.